Insomnia.

     I don't know what is wrong with me, but I find myself waking up at 3 am in the morning and not being able to fall back asleep. So I get out of my bed after trying to get back into a forced sleep, and walk down the hallway to the living room. And what does any other insomniac do? They watch JEOPARDY. I find Jeopardy to be one of the best shows out there. I think this because I'm a nerd and I love learning new things. Don't judge me haters.
     But the nights I do not watch Jeopardy or any other TV show, I stay in my bed and think. Sometimes about random things or what I'll be doing the next day, or about things that have been plaguing my mind nonstop. Those thought's are probably the ones knocking on my brain and telling me to wake up.
     Recently the same thought that keeps waking me up is Hume Lake. For those of you who don't know what Hume Lake is, it's a christian camp located an hour or so outside of Fresno. . . Ahem, FresYES. Anyways, I got hired as their baker for the whole summer and I am so excited! I feel so blessed that I was the one given this job out of all of the people who had applied for it. So you're probably thinking, "Why is Hume Lake consuming her thoughts in the middle of the night?" And my answer to you is that I'm a worry-wart and over analyzer. I am putting all of this worry into my brain for no reason and asking myself questions like, "What if I don't fit in?", "What if I don't make any friends?", or "What if I don't enjoy myself?"And so in ALL of this worrying, I never factor in God. I always forget God's promise for us: He will provide for us if we just trust in him.
     What I need to do is stop complaining and worrying and thinking about ME ME ME and I need to start trusting. I get so self-consumed that I forget to just pray and put it all in God's hands. The fact that He will take my weight off and put it on his shoulders is so comforting. Remember Psalms 55:22 says, "Give your burdens to the Lord and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall." 


That's it for now my friends, I hope this helps you guys out when you start freaking out! 


More to come, Austin



Hume Lake... isn't it pretty??